February 26, 2012

Sorry for the lack of communication over this past week, it was such a busy week full of weird schedules. I hope that you all have been well and happy. I know that life has changed so much for me over the past couple of weeks. This week is yet another crazy week, we are going to IHOP (the International House of Prayer) on Thursday and eight hour car ride in a fifteen passenger van fun! Please be praying for our road trip and the time that we spend in Kansas City. It is sad to say but I actually miss the rain... but not a hole lot. This is the very first time that I am tan in the middle of winter. Would you guys please been praying of the two countries that my team will be going to London and Romania. Pray for God to prepare those countries for an amazing revival. Also be praying for the fact that we are going to read the whole Bible across all of Romania... Please just put the right people around us who what to learn more about God and the amazing love that He has for every single one of His children. I pray that you all will be well and that your week will be amazing! I love and miss all of you so very much.

February 19, 2012

Wow what a crazy last couple of days. So Thursday night we had a Holy Spirit Party after watch the Finger of God. It was not my type of movie however it was a very cool movie about miracles. Jacob our director said that we should pray for people. Then in the middle Jakin our assistant director had the feeling that God wanted us to pray for depression... I walked away at that point and Krysta my roommate came after me we talked for a while and then she prayed for me. At the end Jacob say that he wanted a few to declare what had happened in their live that evening. Krysta looked at me with a Yes smile on her face and I had a face that said no we did this twice. Finally I raised my hand to talk.... I told everyone that I had been dealing with depression since my senior year but that I was from now on choosing to have JOY everyday because God wants that for me. Then Jacob say that I should stand up and pray about it... I was so nervous, everyone came around me and I prayed, in the middle of my pray I started laughing and could not spot it was so weird! I want to bed with a smile on my face that night. then next morning I wake up and I had the song "I've got the JOY, JOY, JOY, JOY down in my heart were? Down in my heart stuck in my head. To this day I still have that joy! God is so good! Saturday Feb. 18 I road the bus for the first time without getting sick... My friends and I went to see The Vow in the movie theater. It was so good! I really enjoyed my time with my two of my closest friends. These last two weeks God has been working so hard in my life but I know that He is so far from being done in my life. I miss everyone and hope that everything is going great. Thank you for all of your support and prays. I miss all of you.

February 15, 2012

Happy Valentine's day late. I hope that your day was full of God's unfailing love for you. Today was a day of great difficulty, I am not feeling to well I have a head and chest cold. I did not want to wake up this morning but it was impossible not to. Worship was amazing today, I got my very first image or vision. I saw a flower that was blooming in the sunlight and then the sun faded and the night came and the flower closed up. This flow of images repeated twice and I had the thought that God is renewing my whole being during the night and making me new for the next day while I sleep that is so comforting for me to know. I could have a really bad day yet that does not mean that the next day is not going to be full of joy and triumph. I had my one on one session with Yi Rang tonight and we talked about quite a ton of heavy stuff. Like if you were to die tomorrow what would you be know for doing to change this world? Did I make a differicne? It was really hard to hear and receive that she had to say... It defiantly left me pondering the inner most areas of myself. Am I living my life the way that I am suppose to? Have I done what God has asked of me? They were really hard questions, questions that just made my stomach go flip and then flop. But in being open and willing to grow and be stretched for God and His purpose. He blessed me by giving me the best prayer time that I have every had in my life with Him. I did not feel like He was so King sitting on His throne but instead a Father who truly loves and cares about His child. I could stumble through the prayer and still feel a wonderful connection with Him. I felt as if I were talking to my best friend in the whole world. Nothing could distract me from my time with Him. I verbalizes all of my raw feeling and how I as laying everything over to Him even thought I was scared to give Him all of my life because you never know He could send me to Zimbabwe! But afterward I felt so alive and free. There was a joy that just bubbled over me, in such a beautiful way. God is so good. I think tonight was the turning point in my relationship with my true Father. I broke down the walls that kept Him out and now we have the beginning of an intimate relationship. What an amazing start, God makes beauty out of the ashas... Thank goodness for that.
Please continue to be praying to the other students who do not have their outreach fully paid for. Just lift them up to the Lord along with those who are not feeling well. Thank you for all of your love and support that you are giving me and my other DTS students.
~Love you all Brittnie

February 13, 2012

Sorry everyone I have been off the grid for all of last week. I am up in the Rocky Mountains in Colorado at the YWAM base called Eagle Rock. I can tell you one thing the beauty that God put into this world is amazing; however I am learning that the beauty we see in creation is not as beautiful as God see you and me, His people. In His eyes I am more beautiful than the setting sun and the mountains, boy does that make a girl feel special! God love me and thinks while and know that I am beautiful even when I don't feel so beautiful. So this past week our topic was on relationships with John Murphy... Amazing he literally has one of the best real life fairy tails that I have every heard. It was a week were God was showing me that I needed to open up and not be so closed off to people... People want to live life with me and get to know me. It is hard to do that when the wall of past hurts stand in your way. But will God anything is possible I am starting to slowly but surly take down the walls that have protected me because in reality they were not protecting me but keeping me from living my life to it's full potential! Wow it is scary how much I am learning and growing. Yes there are tears and laughter and bugs (cold, flu... ext.) and happen it is all apart of growing and learning in this amazing environment. This week is about mission with Troy Sherman... evidently he is a really funny speaker. It is good to have a great time while learning about God that is how He would want it to be. Well I love all of you and I hope that your week goes well. Please be praying for fiances of the students who are apart of YWAM and are still in need of money for their outreach. If you would also pray for health that would be wonderful, I am fighting a really bad cold and so are many other students and staff. Thank you for your prays and support for me during this time for growing closer to God.

February 4, 2012

Hi everyone, I know it has been three days. I have been so busy. I hope that all of you are doing great. So I have finally made my choice to where I am going on outreach. I am going to London and Romania, I am so excited. The team has eight students and one leader Carmen, she is great. This morning we all went over to her place and had breakfast... we had so much fun trudging through the snow. We have about three feet of snow here in Arvada, I love it so much. It is so pretty! Well this week during Kingdom night I was apart of the group that went downtown to the clock tower to sing worship song and pass out flowers to people. I went up to a lady and blessed her with a flower she seemed amazed that someone would just give her a flower. Then I went up to a man who had stopped to listen to the worship music and asked if I could pray for him and he said yes. It was so cool just be able to walk up to some and love on them through pray and also through Jesus Christ. It was so refreshing and freeing, I totally felt renewed by God after that night. Then last night some the girls ate junk food and watched the Emperors New Grove sooooo good I love that movie. Best quote "Yeah I am a Lama again!" so good! Loved hanging out with all the girls. God has blessed me with a great group of people who are also going through this DTS with me. It is hard at times but all in all we really are learning a lot and loving almost every minute of it. So next two weeks are going to be hard for me to blog. I am going to be up in the mountains at Eagle Rock which is the other campus for YWAM Denver. We are going not have much access to the Internet or to cell service. I will try to blog twice in the next two weeks sorry about the loss of communication! I love all of you and miss you a ton. Please continue to pray of the DTS students and be praying of the two outreach teams my team to London and Romania, then the team to Israel and Jordan. Thank you so much for your love and support.
~Brittnie